I'm on the verge of a major decision. Now, I'm very decisive, no nonsense, just trust your instincts, make the decision and then live with it. Unless it's a major decision, then I second guess myself trying to make sure I have taken every possible twist into consideration. I can see clearly, like a movie, what the repercussions would be for other people but for myself, not so much.
This is more than the usual speculation that makes sense to the sane ones in the world like, what happens if we slip into a recession which is inevitable under the current situation in our country (don't get me started on politics). This is a whole new world of lunacy.
It's more than worrying about time commitments or other restraints. Hypothetically, this is more along the lines of: what if I decide to sell candles and people no longer want candles because they are all putting their money into pet mini dinosaurs? What if I decide to sell natural coloured soaps and now everyone wants soap in pump form with glitter included that smell of chocolate. What if I decide to make apple pies and no one grows apples any more because they have all realised there is more money to be made with llamas. There is no rationality here, just random thought bubbles that make no sense at all. Then there are the, what will this person think of my plan and on an on. These are not people whose opinions I particularly care about, just people I've met or know by association etc. If I let this continue out of hand I start to convince myself that I am indeed quite mad and should not be left alone unsupervised to make any decisions at all.
So, I consult the cards, the horoscopes, the wisdom of others I trust and you know what they all tell me: trust your instincts. So tonight will tell me if I am making the right decision for me right now. If I sleep, it's full steam ahead.
If my sleep is speckled with exciting ideas for my new project, it's full steam ahead. Cross your fingers for me and let's hope my search is over and I will have a new project to sink my teeth into, along side the fun of Lilith's Gifts.